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Grief, Depression & Sharing the Tools I Need Daily: #1 ~ Calendars, Goals and Lists

In the past three years I've really struggled with staying focused and achieving goals. The past 8 months, when depression reared its ugly head, have been the most difficult. The only goals I seemed to be able to accomplish were the ones that were necessary--feed and clothe my family and keep the house semi-clean. Beyond that? The couch was my closest friend. Books and movies kept my mind off the pain. There were spurts of energy where I dove into the distraction the wool business could provide, but my heart wasn't in it.

This past February I was finally able to get some help beyond the "you know what you need to do" platitudes I heard far too often (sometimes you need tools, not just words shared and then dismissed, right?) and slowly I'm crawling out of the muck and mire, but it's a slippery slope. 
As I'm crawling out of the muck and mire, I've been struggling with this feeling that I should share some of these tools here on the blog. I can't b…

The Droopy. The Dried Out. The Ready to Fall Apart.

I was about to throw out the tulips in this vase, but as I sat there, finishing my coffee, I was drawn to the droopy, the dried out, the ready to fall apart petals. They weren't perfect and fresh anymore, yet the beauty of the details still intrigued me. There was still so much to enjoy.

I think we all feel that way sometimes. Tired, dried up, droopy...and I don't mean physically (although...😉).  It pretty much sums up our weekend. Emotionally exhausting on many levels. Yet, God reminded me over and over that there's beauty in the 'droopy, dried up, falling apart' moments of life. What we think is ready to be thrown out, holds a beauty that the fresh, beautiful, and vibrant part of our lives never showed us.