I keep telling myself: Just get over it, Iris!!
I wish it were that easy. I have this inner voice that keeps telling me that I am stronger than this. I should just get over it.
Having struggled with a different form of depression before, I know in my head that you can't just get over it magically and it has nothing to do with strength. If it has anything to do with strength it's not that you're weak, it's that you've been trying to be strong for so long.
If you're wondering what some signs of Post Partum Depression (PPD) are (and most of these hold true for other forms of depression as well), these are some things that come to my mind from personal experience and from becoming more educated on the subject:
You may feel:
- guilty and ready to blame yourself for everything
- exhausted and lacking in motivation
- unable to enjoy yourself
- trapped in your life
- panic attacks that cause a rapid heartbeat, sweating, sickness or fainting
- stomach pains, headaches or blurred vision
- a loss of appetite or the urge to comfort eat
- suicidal feelings
- a low sex drive
If you're struggling with any of these things. Post Partum or not, please talk to someone about it. A friend, your husband, a councilor, a healthcare provider. The faster you get on board with finding your way on the journey of better health, the faster you'll get to the normal life you wish for. No, it's not easy, but when is anything worth it, easy? This is worth it.
And NO, you can't just get over it. It takes work. Hard work.